inside my head

I'm feelin'.... I'm not sure how I feel actually, I don't know how to describe it.... I'm having problems with lots of things right now and the stress and craziness of my life right now is leaving me exhausted and confused about everything. And... my days as FFA secretary are officially numbered... I have just two days left... I know for a fact I am going to bawl like a baby on banquet night...and I'm so anxious about graduating! I want to find a full time job this summer, but I haven't been able to find one... I'll probably end up working more hours at the store and more hours for the animal shelter. I'm so excited to start school at Snow in the fall. I'm kind of a little sad about leaving behind of my friends. I just don't know what to say I'm at a loss...I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to jump around and show everyone I'm ok, but I can't, I just can't. The face I put out to the world makes everyone think it's ok, but inside there is so much going on I'm not sure how to cope. Ok now that I've shown my depressing sad side... hope everyone is having a good day! I'll be posting pictures of the banquet in a few days.

Well....

Well I didn't make state officer for FFA :( It's a little sad, but at the same time I had so much fun running and met alot of new people! I got to do one interview Thursday then four on Friday. I packed four pairs of clothes... never most of them! I spent almost the whole time in official dress (FFA Jacket, skirt, high heels, nylons, scarf, white shirt) The only times i ever changed I can count on one hand! I changed into a swimming suit the first night and my pajamas, t-shirt and jeans for the dance and pajamas the second night, and that was it! But like I said I had tons of fun. The Nom. Com. people said they absolutely loved me but just didn't think I could do a state office. That's ok though cuz now that I think about it...I have a ton of stuff going on and this way I can concentrate on what is really important. Like paying for college, getting signed up for classes, working on the drill for the rodeo, starting on my show lambs so they will be ready for the show, possibly finding a full time job for the summer. So yeah convention was super fun and i don't regret running for state office, I have grown soooooo much from the experience!

Easter fun

Bryndee's egg findin face

Brystyn's "I'm to excited to stand still long enough for a picture" pose.

Kaprooklyn lookin for easter eggs. She's old enough to hang with the big kids, then young enough to get free candy!

That's Trevor coming up with some shot for our HORSE game

Garrett failing miserably at basketball

On the way over Brystyn took our beatiful pictures

This is wide eyed Baby Brylee herself!

Today we went over to my cousin's family's house ( you still followin?) and we had an egg hunt for all the younger kids. We had hamburgers the size of basketballs and lots of candy ( not like we needed more of that stuff!) The older kids went out and played some basketball and I helped hide the eggs for the kids. Then it was "Let em' loose!!!" and all the kids went racing in all directions hunting for our cleverly disguised eggs.

Pizza and Arcade games!

Brookelyn and I makin faces

Brookelyn, Bryndee, and I makin more faces

Wow a normal one

Normal doesn't last long

This was while we were waiting to be seated ( Uncle Moe and baby Brylee, Garrett, Brystyn, Austin, Brookelyn, me and Bryndee)

Last Night we went to a place called Fat Cats where we ate pizza and the original plan was to go bowling but it was super expensive there! Seriously it would have cost close to a hundred bucks for all of us to go bowling, and I don't know about anyone else, but I don't have a hundred bucks to blow on one game of bowling! So instead we all played arcade games. I didn't play any I just held Brylee the whole time and I loved seeing her little eyes get wide at all the lights and sounds and people runnin around. It really was super fun and everyone got tons of tickets and got all kinds of fun little prizes.

Our Amazing Bank Adventure!

Garrett asleep in the lobby chair

everyone just 'hangin ten' in the lobby

The hamster pancake I made that started off the day.

OK so yesterday I made a hamster pancake...well it was supposed to be a mouse but it ended up a hamster after the mousy tail fell off and pretty much burnt to a crisp. Then when my grandpa and grandma got here, we went to the bank where we spent hours waiting for things to get wrapped up. Hence we cleaned out the bank of it's candy stash and their money cashing savings bonds. Plus we pretty much rearranged the lobby! All in all it was a very long day at the bank!

So just a quick update

I turned 18 on monday...not much different from being 17 which wasn't that different from being 16.... funny how that works eh? I drove up north last night for like the second time and I was worried about it, but it was super super easy, no problems at all! Oh and Deseret Peak Contests went extremely well for North Sevier, the A horse team took first place overall with one of the members taking first place individual. I was only 4 points behind her so I was pretty far up there I'm thinking! State Convention is in exactly one week...I hope I'll be ready! :0

WoAh!

~ Back in 1998, such a cute lil' cowgirl~

I raised that little goat on a bottle....in my bedroom!

OK I was totally a dorky child I'm not gonna lie

One of the many horses I learned to ride on.

When my little bro cody was born

So i was just looking round on the computer and found some pics...I can't believe how blonde my hair was, I was a little toe head!!! It amazes me especially since now its like almost black its so dark brown....interesting......

Boring day!

Dork Fish Yep that's totally up my alley

Ello!

wow the sun!

My absolute favorite!

OK so one of my favorite things to do when I'm bored is to take pictures especially when I have my camera and yeah so here are a few I've taken. I hope you enjoy them cuz I had fun takin em'.

Yay Preference pictures haha!

the whole group, ok we totally look amazing in our mafia\gangster hats

just the two of us

my date...with bree's hand in the way

the pic i attempted to take of the three besties lol

haha classic evan looks like a dork(what else is new) and being DENIED by melissa lol

Me and Bree makin faces

and more faces

me and my bestest friend haha

me and my date while we were all waiting for pizza...idk what im doin'

way way funny pic of melissa, at the time she was like "i have to take pics like this(hence the face) so you can get a pic of me with my eyes open"

Preference was March 6 and we just got our pictures back today! Melissa, Bree, and I bought these sweet hats before we found out that the dance was going to be formal. But we decided heck we're seniors, lets do whatever the heck we want, and thats the stories behind our mafia hats haha. My date was Tyrell Harrison AKA Trigger lol. In our group picture he pretty much summed up the face he's pulling by telling me he was growling! It was so much fun! Oh and for our date we went bowling and ate pizza at the Pizza Hut place.